Author: cc

registered financial advisor for thirteen years, nasm cpt for eight years. in love with nature & movement & dogs & seeing more.

인연

For my Humanities class, I had to pick a film and a scene within it that I thought best summed up the themes. Here’s SOME of my assignment! For no one’s interest, but mine! Allow me to tell you how much I hate/love working full time, balancing movement/fitness classes, the stress of a Trump era… Continue reading 인연

Major Signs

Have you ever gone to bed with the dried, sticky sweat still on your body from a workout? No? You’re not disgusting? I don’t recommend it. It’s that sneaky reminder that: depression is back, time to put your gloves on. I woke up with a panicky prognosis from my Oura ring: “Your biometrics show major… Continue reading Major Signs

83% Through Babs

some of my favorite quotes in my note app: It was nice to be a little bit closer to the sky. I didn’t know Doris and she didn’t know me, yet somehow she had peered into my soul.  Can you imagine what it was like working with his eyes on you? I felt seen. A… Continue reading 83% Through Babs

Maxine 🎧

I haven’t felt much like writing for a bit. I got caught up in an early morning yoga and meditation routine that I thought was serving me, but I don’t know. A friend said to me recently that sometimes you can do the healthiest things and still feel terrible, and that makes feeling terrible all… Continue reading Maxine 🎧

Pass-a-Grille

I love shell landscaping instead of grass. I love sea grapes and their round bright yellow green leaves. I love man made sand dollars or sea turtles instead of boring stepping stones that lead to a house with pastel colors and a coordinated mailbox made to also look like a house. I love tackily painted… Continue reading Pass-a-Grille

You’re number one 🎧

One of our clients has Alzheimer’s, and her children are having to put her in memory care. I also learned that, unbeknownst to her, she has stage four brain cancer. Sometimes I wonder how I ended up in a career like this—one where life events pop up often enough to force you into a headspace… Continue reading You’re number one 🎧

Paper-Cut Hearts

I love February. I’m a sucker for the colors of Valentine’s Day and all the sweetness that comes with the holiday. I don’t know why, I just think it’s cute. I’m still off social media. Okay, sometimes, at work, I’d skim my (finally deactivated) Twitter feed (which is mostly astrology content creators and X-Files fans),… Continue reading Paper-Cut Hearts

Chickadee 🎧

I woke up two days ago thinking about the way my Grandpop Tom sounded when he called us “chickadee.” He was an aeronautical engineer who spent World War II repairing airplanes on base in Morocco until the war was over. But I remember him differently (as a child might) since we lost him to cancer… Continue reading Chickadee 🎧

Write a Letter

I’m a big fan of letters— writing them and receiving them. I receive them less often than I write them, but what can you do? When I was in high school, I spent most of my time ignoring the recommended reading and focusing on my own curriculum. I preferred female writers from the Regency, Victorian… Continue reading Write a Letter

Closer to the Sky

I don’t want to write about Barbra Streisand. For one thing, I can’t say anything that someone else hasn’t already said, probably in a more refined and knowledgeable way. I don’t regularly listen to her music. But since listening to her audiobook, I’ve found myself curious enough to download The Second Barbra Streisand Album. I… Continue reading Closer to the Sky

Detaching from Socials

The first month of 2025 found me breaking up with social media just ten days in. And gosh, what freedom. I know we shouldn’t look away from the things affecting our communities, and I won’t. But the disconnection from the endless stream of content created by people who are also consuming endless content? It’s a… Continue reading Detaching from Socials

January Song 🎧

It’s a dreary Sunday morning, fog and a white-gray sky making the warm temperature seem contradictory. Thankfully, there’s an intermittent breeze, light and cool enough to be comfortable as Gigi and I head out for our regular walk. Sometimes we go through the apartments across the street from our home. She loves this because there… Continue reading January Song 🎧

Dream Logic

I’ve been having weird and vivid dreams lately, which is one of my favorite things. What makes them more frequent? We know increased REM sleep is usually the main thing. When our sleep cycles are consistent, this can happen. Another cause can be stress or anxiety, or even sleep disorders that make a person wake… Continue reading Dream Logic

Securely Aware

Most of us with pets understand this feeling: That sinking dread when you calculate how many years you have left. Maybe if I had a secure attachment style, or I obeyed certain aspects of letting go, I’d find myself calmly rationalizing how many walks I have left. How many couch cuddles and games of fetch… Continue reading Securely Aware

Daily Writing (001)

Do I think I’ll write daily up to a hundred times this year? That would be cool. I’ve thought about journaling more and more recently. I used to do it in my twenties (handwritten and all) without hesitation. The year I was dumped, I filled up an entire velvet-covered book. It’s one of my most… Continue reading Daily Writing (001)

Lemongrass Face Smooshes

My walks with Gigi are not always perfect. She’s a terrier I haven’t taken the proper care to train, and because of that, she barks at every single damn dog she sees. It’s a nuisance, really.

Five Holiday Films

The tree isn’t up, there isn’t a twinkling light in sight. The only evidence of Christmas spirit in my home is a Fir-scented soy candle from Whole Foods. Oh, and these Savage Fenty pajama bottoms: LOL Despite my dulled enthusiasm for the holidays this season, I’ve already watched most of my favorite Christmas movies to… Continue reading Five Holiday Films

Crying is bad for backs

Pain, especially physical pain of an excruciating nature, is a surreal thing. If you’ve never experienced it on a crippling scale, the kind that humbles you, it can be hard to relate. It’s been four years since my last serious back episode, and this one completely shattered me. It was enough to make me pause,… Continue reading Crying is bad for backs

Take a Nap-a

I fall asleep gigglingto Sarah Jessica Parker as Carrie Bradshaw,Recognized by all asAnnoying or beloved—For her shoe addiction,Her emotional bigness over Big’semotional avoidance,Or the missed chance withFurniture-making, golden-retriever Aiden. But I see her differently:A pun-loving comedy genius,Staring at buildingsJust before she leaves them. I’ve rewatched this showOnce every decade since my teens.And now, at thirty-eight,It… Continue reading Take a Nap-a

it’s December

I wake up with my hands wrapped around his stomach like a seatbelt. I can hear Gigi fidgeting in her crate when I open my eyes to not the kind of darkness that tells you it’s okay to keep sleeping, but the kind of darkness that hints at a sunrise pending. Nothing’s particularly different or… Continue reading it’s December