my city, my rules

my hair is getting longer
and my body keeps getting smaller
I make boring appointments
receive compliments I want to return,
but I don’t want to seem contrived.

what I really want?
is this parking lot to be empty,
so I can dance to this song.

I’ll settle for memory mining,
though my co-author prefers me
to stay silent. he'll say:
shh, get back in your drawer,
sweet darling

(archived ghosts
don’t speak in real time)

this is too much.
it isn’t healthy.
I get too in my head.

I only want to explore this
in a disembodied way.


my needs are rhythmic,
sometimes random
but one thing you can count on?
I’ll archive you again.

and in that drawer
I am singular and bright
and I like being undone.

shh, sweet darling,
could you let your light fade?

I'll keep looking anyway.

(Daily Writing 041)